March 21st, 2020 – The first post of Spring

Hey guys!

How’s everyone doing amidst the whole COVID-19 crisis? I hope you’re all safe and sound, staying at home, and protecting yourselves and others.

I’ve been meaning to write for a good while now, but I lacked even the slightest inspiration. My mind’s been blurred for the past couple of weeks, and I have to admit I wasn’t feeling very comfortable in my skin either.

Life was a kaleidoscope of negative emotions and ambiguities, and I can affirmatively say I couldn’t recognize myself.

So what was going on? I found myself all of sudden re-evaluating everything.

From here, I want to send a message to anyone reading this post:

It’s very normal to be affected by everything happening around us, whether it’s the COVID-19 panic, the plethora of real and fake news about pretty much anything these days, the lifestyle bloggers who make it look like life is as easy as tying your shoes, and all the rest. The Internet is a vast place, so is the world of media in general, and anyone who has access to them has the right to provide any content s/he regards acceptable.

To every person who feels anxious and overwhelmed,

It is absolutely okay to feel this way. As a matter of fact, all of this is okay and justifiable; what is happening in the world now is indeed scary and uncertain, so it’s normal to be anxious. Go ahead, disconnect. You don’t have to succumb to the worry that the media is trying to feed you. If it makes you comfortable to delete some news apps, then do it. Seek serenity.

To every person who feels worried about the future, 

Whether you’re afraid of not finding a job, not going back to your job, not finding a loved one, not going back to university (especially with the pandemic), or anything at all about the future, I want you to know that it’s going to be okay. I promise. I know it sounds hopeless, but after a while, I realized that time is on our side, even when we think it isn’t and is just laughing in our faces. As previously mentioned in other posts, we have to reduce the production of toxic chemicals at all cost. Time is on your side. Time is on your side. Time is on your side.

The last thing I want to talk about are three incredible feelings I’ve experienced recently. The first one being the serenity post-meditation. There’s this track I have downloaded on Spotify, entitled “Letting Go Meditation”, that I love to listen to. In it, Donna D’Cruz says, “By letting go, it all gets done.” The track encourages you to cleanse your mind and life of all that does not serve you in being the most beautiful version of yourself. Breathing in and out through your nose, you practice the subtle act of letting go of all what holds you back. Inhaling “let” and exhaling “go”, inviting in “serenity” and letting go of “anger”.

The second incredible feeling I’ve experienced was while lip-syncing to “How He Loves” by David Crowder. This must be one of my favorite songs of all time because he (David) wholeheartedly shouts to the world that God loves us infinitely. This song makes me feel a whole lot of emotions, and they flow through my body like electricity.

And lastly, this very morning I experienced this situation when you listen to a song and think, “God, this is exactly what I needed to hear right now.” I was looking through my old music folders when I came across “Everglow” by Coldplay. I played it and looked up the lyrics again. After reading them, I looked up its meaning – I realized I had never given it much time and attention, but I’m so thankful I did today. “Everglow” talks about the warmth and happiness you feel after remembering a past event that has long ended and/or once hurt you. This song is perfectly in sync with how I felt today, and I feel immensely happy.

So here we are, the end of the post. If you’ve made it till here, congratulations. It means that I have achieved my purpose of helping you somehow. I want to end this post by saying almost all of us will go through times when our emotions will be jumbled up, undefined, and we’ll find ourselves oscillating back and forth between being okay and being not okay, but that’s alright. There’s a light at the end of this tunnel, and we will feel its radiating warmth on our faces very soon hopefully. Happiness wins, or at least I believe it does.

All the love.

Maria. x